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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

So bought a house and land package at Mawson Lakes. Really excited about it. Going to build a terrace style of house. I am very much looking forward to doing all the selections.

So therefore, the holiday to Thailand has been put on the back burner...

Going to U2 tonight... YAY!!!

I had the flu on the weekend. Thought I was well enough to come into work yesterday. Which I did, even tho came in late.
Started feeling faint and nauseous. So decided I should probably go home.
Got on the bus and was feeling pretty crappy, so I went and sat on the front steps of the bus where you get on.
I started feeling chucky so I chucked into my bag (not my good handbag, but other bag that I carry to bring my lunch in etc). The bag leaked and I ended up with spewy bits all over my suit. I catch the O-Bahn buses and once we reached Klemzig interchange I looked up at the bus driver and apologised.
Which he then turned to me and told me that I had to get off! I then replied with what?! and he again told me that I had to get off the bus.
Can you believe it?
I only needed to get off at the next stop, where my car was.
I got off the bus in tears and rang my dad who came 20 minutes later.
Nobody even checked to see if I was ok on the bus. Are there no good samaritans left??

I am feeling much better now :)

I wrote a letter venting some feelings and some thoughts that were going through my head.

I feel so much better for writing the letter.

But should I still give it to the person it was intended for?

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to. Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you. Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted. Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

On Sunday night we were driving back to my boyfriends house about midnight. as we turned into his street we saw a KANGAROO in the middle of the street.
I couldn't believe it. We tried to follow it so that I could take a photo but the bugger was too fast.
Fancy that... a kangaroo in suburbia.

Also...
On Thursday night I bought a chain and padlock for cupbaord.
This is so that I can lock up my good shit and my sister cannot just help herself, as it it really angers me when I see her wearing my stuff - especially when she doesn't ask. And she smokes so she smells out all my clothes.

Oh yeah...it's been 5 weeks now since I've had a cigarette.

That I went to a house-warming party on Saturday night. Aout 70% of the people there were smokers.
Well I didn't have a cigarette all night - AT ALL!
I even had a few drinks and still didn't want one.

I am very proud if myself. Hope that I can keep this up.

Went out for Valentine's Day dinner last night to an Argentinian restaurant Sosta on Rundle Street last night. Was very nice, very rich and very filling.
Anyway, we were sitting outside having a cigarette before our meals were served and I was just looking around at the atmosphere on the street. It was very busy last night and all the aromas of food were very yummy.
Looked over a to a few metres away from me and there was this group of ladies standing around having a cigarette too. I then noticed that one the ladies, who looked to be in her late 20s was heavily pregnant - and smoking too! I couldn't believe it. That kind of behaviour to me is appalling. I really felt like saying something, but was too ckicken shit.

It's been a few months since I have updated this.
Things have been really slack at work. I have been bored sh*tless. Today the guys aren't in, and I have been reading my novel all morning. It's a great book ('The Jump' by Martina Cole). Fantastic actually.
It's pretty thick and I've almost finished a week later.
Anyway, back to the work thing... There has been talk of another re-structure. Hopefully it happens. As then one of two things will happen. Either there won't be a job for us anymore or we will be so busy that we won't have time to scratch our bums.
So I think I will just soak it for now and enjoy reading my books.
I received my DFP 3 folder this morning, so I guess I could get a start on with that too.

Things in personal/family life has gone pear-shaped.
My Filip and I aren't speaking to each other at the moment. He is pissed at me for some reason (and I think the reason is because he doesn't like my boyfriend). And instead of confronting me and telling me what his problem is, he is bitching about me and posting things on his blog. As he doesn't answer my phone calls, I have written him a couple of emails which he has only bothered to reply to one. I feel like I am in high school again having a fight with one of my friends. It's pathertic, so now I am just going to ignore and I am sure that one he will come around and talk to me like a normal person.

Melissa has really settled down. She isn't causing me hassles before like she used to. Which is really good, and then I actually want to make time for her and I enjoy spending time with her.
She has been saying that she really wants to find a boyfriend again and settle down. I don't think it is the best for her.
But anyway...!!


I have been trying really hard to save money. Want to buy a house with the boyfriend middle of this year.
So I have been catching the bus to and from work everyday. And have been bringing my lunch in everyday. But I still don't see the money rolling in. Damn it!
I hate that I am so impatient. I think, because I have worked out a plan on how to save all this cash and how much I will have by a certain date, I want it to happen right away!!
I so want it to happen overnight! Cos if I don't start seeing results I will give up.
I guess that is a great weakness on my part - the fact that my determination, motivation and dedication are very short lived. I guess that is why I used to do a lot of things on the spur of the moment. And then regret them later.
Namely, spending all my money on clothes and shoes and other sh*t that I really didn't need. I get really angry at myself sometimes when I think of all the money I have spent on crap over the years. And only of I listened to the people around who were telling me to SAVE! then I could have had a lot more money now.
Also, the fact that last year I received an insurance pay-out for being a passenger in a car accident. I received a bit of money, and instead of being smart with it, I blew the whole f***ing lot.
Geez... I get so angry at myself when I think about that. Especially considering that half the clothes and shoes I bought with that I haven't even worn yet and it has been nearly a year!
I want to sell some of the stuff on ebay, but I can never get the pictures to load. So I guess I am doomed. Doomed to be poor with a load of sh*t that I no longer want and I can't get rid of it.
Oh well, I guess there is nothing I can do now except realise my mistakes and just try harder for the future. I know I can do it!!

Also, approached my boss late last year. I asked for a pay rise and to change my contract. He agreed and I was rapt. He even gave a $5K payrise and changed my contract so that my bonus potential is 20%.
He did the right thing - got approval from his manager. Forwarded the relevant info to HR. Then a couple of days later HR came back saying that as it was a mid-year payrise they would need to get approval from the CEO! They said it was no big deal and they would have the approval for us withing a couple of days. This was in December...
My manager is trying to do the right thing by me, and he follows up with the HR contact every couple of days to see what is going. This HR dude NEVER answers his phone calls or returns emails.
It is beginning to be very frustrating as I am waiting for my money!!!
I understand that employee number 209707(me) is not very high on the CEO's priority list - but goddamnit how long can this take?!?
Maybe that's a sign that they don't want to be bothered with me as post-restructure I will no longer be around and so they think - to hell with it!
Ahhh well... I guess I just have to sit back and wait.

Hmmmm it has been a while since I have updated this.
A lot has been happening, but not a lot - if you know what I mean.
I am still with my boyfriend. Things are going really well. He's met most of my family and I've now met most of his.
My grandma invited us over for dinner last Saturday night. Everything went smoothly. Only thing is my grandma and some of my aunties are Jehovah's Witnesses. Haven't really every had to tell anyone before kinda kept it a secret from everyone, but had to tell him before the dinner. Think it might have freaked him out a bit - especially when my uncle did a prayer before we ate. Anyways, you get that sometimes I guess.
So this Sunday night we are going out for dinner and to the movies with my mum and dad. AND it was my fathers idea!!!!
I couldn't believe it when he suggested it. But he seems pretty excited about it. I don't know what has gotten into him, but I am certainly not going to question it. Just take it as it comes. The Boyfriend is pretty happy that finally my dad is paying him some attention and actually trying to make conversation with him.

I've noticed heaps lately that when I speak I use the term 'we'. Like 'We did this...' and 'We went there...'.
There's no more I or ME!!! It's all good as long as I don't completely lose my identity.
I know and other people around me can tell that I have changed. I think it's in a good way though. I think I am more pleasant and have more patience.
I don't know, maybe it's in my head.
Still early days I guess.... I still keep thinking that anything can come along at any time and screw everything up for me. Like it might be something out of OUR control. I don't know what exactly, but something. Is it wrong to think like that? It upsets HIM that I think like this because it's negative thinking and HE thinks it will never work out if I keep thinking that way.
But I think that the reason I think like that is kinda like I am setting myself up for the worst, so that if/when it happens I won't be so shattered or heart-broken. Does that make sense to anyone?
Or do I need to get over it and if it happens it happens, and deal with it then?

So bored at work right now. Hopefully will be able to leave half hour early. That would be nice... Might send mental signals to the boss........

I feel like I have just eaten half a shopping centrefor lunch. It's all healthy, but I just need to write it down to see if it really is that bad...

1 piece buttered soy & linseed toast
1 lebanese cucumber
1 stick celery
1 carrot
1 banana
1 kiwi fruit
1 mandarine


Hmmm.... I guess they are all healthy, but I just feel so full now.

Went to the naturopath last night and he said that my hormones are not how they should be. So I have to eat more fruit and veg. Which I have been doing for the past couple of weeks anyway. He reckons he can fix me. I sure hope so, cos I really don't want to have to go through with surgery that is booked in in 2 weeks time!
At my visit to the naturopath last week he mentioned that he needs to have a look up there to see if everything looks in order. Luckily I had my monthlies. Told mum when I got home. She said there was no way that that was happening. He's not qualified for that and no one is going to do any sleazy things like that to her daughter. So I asked her if she could come with me. She met me there last night, and straight away the naturopath knew why she was there. He brought it up first. HE said - You don't want me to have a look at your vagina, is that why your mum is here?
Mum spoke up and said - No neither my daughter or are comfortable with that.
He looked disappointed and didn't really seem interested to help me after that.
I have to go back next week - without mum...

I went to see this guy a few years when i was sick and he really helped me. I know that he can help me again, I am just scared that he is going to do something...

So should I go back...???
It could save my womanhood...

How sad is this...
On Saturday night got pissed at home by myself. The Boyfriend had a bucks night. And I was going to go into the city to meet up with some friends. As am house sitting at the moment, was there all ready having a drink whilst waiting for the taxi. An hour and a half later and I was still waiting for the taxi. And I was pissed.
I rang the taxi company a few times and they just kept saying that it was a few minutes away. When The Boyfriend got back home at 2am, I was blind drunk. Slurring words and couldn't walk straight. Pretty funny when i think about it now.
But as if I got blind drunk on my own!!!
I was a bit hungover yesterday, stayed in bed til about 6. Then got up had dinner and went back to bed. And woke up today feeling really tired!!
Bloody work...
Anyway today is the 3 month anniversary for me and The Boyfriend. Feels like it has been a lot longer, but then again how time flies...

Am house-sitting girls house from while she is overseas for 5 weeks (lucky her!!).
Picked up the keys on Wednesday night. So the place was officially mine as of last night. Went there to drop some stuff off and went grocery shopping.
The place is so filthy. I spent about an hour and a half vacuuming. There was just dirt everywhere.
Oh and to top it off, the hot water system blew up yesterday so their landlord turned off the water. So when I got there last night I was wanting to wash up a few things - and I couldn't!!
Didn't end up staying there last night cos of the no water thing.
Hopefully the landlord has it sorted by today.
I didn't realise how much for granted I take water. Imagine all those years ago, where they didn't have running water!

Saw The Wedding Crashers last night.
One of the funniest movies I've seen in a long time.

Oh! Forgot to mention that we won!
25 - 21. And they even had a 2 goal advantage over us because we were late onto the court.
Even sweeter.

Played netball last night. It was my first game. My sister formed a team for Monday nights and I volunteered.
So in the first 5 mins of the game I rolled my ankle. Although there is no bruising I can feel it's a bit sore today.
Then just into the second quarter went to defend and my ankle gave way and I fell on the floor where I grazed my knee. You beauty! Have a wedding in 2 weeks which I wanted to wear a skirt for... And I take a long time to heal.
THEN!!! 4 minutes before the end of the game, somehow my head was in the wrong spot at the wrong time, and a TEAM MEMBER poked me in the eye. It was not nice. I think she was grabbing for the ball which was a bit too close to my head, and she just decided to poke me eye out!
It was so painful. Had to go straight off the court cos I couldn't see. Went to the ladies and found just under my eye was bleeding.
Now it's all puffy and saw. Looks like crap. But at least makes me look a bit meaner. People might just make a bit of an effort to not bump into me in the street or on the bus.
Ahhh well, just as long as it goes away before the wedding!!

Got home from work at 5:30 yesterday. As soon as I got home crashed on the couch. Dad woke me up at 6:30 told me dinner was ready. Ate, then rang the boyfriend and told him I wasn't going to do anything. Went back onto the couch and slept. Got woken up at 9pm by mum telling me to go to bed. Went to be and woke up at 8am this morning!!
Felt like absolute shit.
Still did this morning.
And am only starting to feel a bit better now.
Might take it easy tonight as well.

My DFP 4 assignment is due on Tuesday though, so need to get my ass into gear with that one.
By the way, did I mention that I passed the exam? YAY - that means my boss owes me a lunch at the Lenzerheide.
Yeah... we'll see about that one.

Am doing a detox thing where no coffee, alcohol, cigarettes or shit food during the week.
Yesterday was my first day and maybe that's why I felt so crappy.
So far so good.
Mum got me onto it, cos she doesn't like me drinking coffee. She says it's not good for the hormones.
And I really want to cut down/quit smoking. But the habit is so hard to kick. Only because if I go out for coffee, I have a smoke otherwise i am so fidgety.
I might try stop going out for coffee so much.
Mum mentioned that it might be a good idea for me to bring The Boyfriend home to meet them, that way he can come to our house instead of me always going there which means that I am driving home at all hours of the night.
Not sure if I am ready to freak him out yet tho.
It just seems that it's all peachy at his house. Like I was there the other day. And his dad was making coffees. He asked his wife (TBs mum) - "would you like a coffee babe?".
I almost had to stop myself from choking. You would never hear my dad say that to my mum in a million years!!!
At my house, my parents hardly speak to each other, and when they do speak all they is complain.
And then all they do is bitch about each other to me.
It's like, no wonder I'm not such a believer in love and showing affections.

So povo today, brought in a can of tuna for lunch today.
And have some bread in the freezer.

Just rang my cousin and he rememebers receiving my text, but cannot remember if he replied.

Fuck!!